Time in the yoga bubble exists only relative to how much time you have for hydration and nutrition before your next yoga class multiplied by the square root of how many words you have to memorize before your next posture clinic--unless you're crying, in which case time stands as still as the yogis who are there holding your hand.
It's been two weeks since my last blog post, but it feels like for ever. In the last two weeks I have:
- Delivered the dialogue for postures 9-20 (Triangle Pose to Fixed Firm Pose)
- Passed the Anatomy portion of TT (with an A!)
- For the first time, delivered a posture without having studied the dialogue (Fixed Firm Pose)
- Received another amazing care package from home (thank you Sarah Cargilova!)
- Stood strong through another legendarily hot class - this time without leaving the room or even taking any breaks
- Had an emotional breakdown
- Had a weekend with Mike and Kitty Pooch (a-MAZE-ing!)
- Missed the 4th Annual Bolger Halloween Extravaganza
- Made some alone time
- Been in touch with my home studio about teaching my first class (eeeeeeeeeee!)
The yoga is hard. Everything outside the yoga is just harder. Constant studying, late-night lectures or movies (several starting at midnight or later), eating just-add-water soup out of styrofoam bowls with plastic utensils (while studying), hotel rooms that smell of mossy laundry detergent and feel like the inside of a tent on an cold, dewy morning, always having somewhere to be, and always having someone to be with.
The last two weeks were mentally and emotionally challenging. They actually challenged my determination to be positive. But in the end, the last two weeks also brought the perspective that:
- What feels like suffering in the yoga room is actually nothing compared to the suffering of those who carry pain and fear with them through their lives, and
- Surviving and succeeding in the yoga room is practice for surviving and succeeding in life's real challenges.
I'm really jazzed about all that's happened these last two weeks, but I'm exhausted and I think I should get to bed. I'm sure you all understand. And I'm sure I'll make up for it with some lovely face-to-face conversations soon enough.
PS - A few fun pics from the last two weeks:
|Mike and me after our Saturday morning class together|
|Date night - hungry Bikram Yoga Teacher Trainee style!|
|"Your two legs should look like a perfect upside down L, like Linda"|
|Backbends + boardwalks = <3|